Summer ending

Jimmy and David had a BBQ yesterday, the turn out was pretty good and it was much fun playing some outdoor sports with your buddies, even though your shirt is wet from all the sweating. With the thought of school coming up on the minds of many, I feel like summer is ending. I look at the green grass and the trees as I drive down the highway and I can already see them turning into leafless branches and snow covered fields. I can already feel the coldness and the clouds blanketing the city and blocking out the sun. Andrea leaves for Iowa for med school on Aug. 8th, I think. Its one of those events that mark a transition in your life, a new direction for everyone. Her departure will be symbolic, it will mark the end of the easy life; partying, hanging out, playing tennis, bar hopping, smoking weed (j/k), etc... I can't help but feel that within the next 2 to 3 years, my life will be drastically different from the way it is now, living in Michelle's basement and interning at Rosemount. Hopefully, I will reach my goals or at least make gains and get close to my goals. Having fun is great and all, but I must move on from my full-time job of having fun and socializing in order to achieve my goals in life. Of course the fun and socializing won't go away completely, it will just be part-time.

My pictures

I forgot to post the link to the pictures I took while in China during May. http://www.zhoudynasty.com/pictures/china_album/May2005/

不应有恨

今天看到一则旧闻，美国一女子不忿先生外遇，怒由心起，杀夫，烹之，又将其喂狗。看得我冷汗直冒，全身数百毛孔同时扩张，酷夏深夜里吹来的风竟然都是阵阵寒意。 不敢想象什么样恨能够使一个人的心去到那样冷酷的地步，实无法揣摩。还好，我知道，我希望的会是怎样： 一.30岁的时候，腰间的游泳圈不会增大3号；衣柜打开，里面是清一色的蓝白黑；除却麻将美容，多看看书也不是很坏的选择；如若不幸先生不再念旧情与你分手，千万莫要怨恨别人或死死纠缠，你哭你累，他也装成瞎子看不见，不如把力气节省回来，要走？好，行李依旧帮忙打包好，拱手道别，不送不送； 二.40岁来临，不要以为你为他养儿育女就劳苦功高，世界上不见得只有你一个人愿意做此牺牲；先生赚钱养家已经很辛苦，不要想着这是理所当然，否则先生也许很愿意和你调换角色试试看； 四.60岁驾到，儿女已经有自己的家庭，切记和女婿媳妇互相尊重，凡事莫挑剔，人家或需用余生照顾你一手养大的宝贝，一念至此，怎能不心生温暖，道声谢谢； 五.80岁或许大限将至，世界澄明一片，先生不再英明你也不再俏，希望记得天天更换内衣，床单月月洗，不要待尚离别人十米八米远闻到味道就知汝将至；生死之事等闲矣，想想他朝吾体也相同，和先生漫步人生尽头何尝不是赏心事.

杂谈经

电脑死机，一切重来，但是已不在状态... 太久没来，太久没写，但时间有限，精力亦不允许，唯有长话短说，聊以解闷 一. 小一告知材料终于寄出去，大呼一口气，乐哉乐哉，未来数月只需耐心等候相见的日子即可。没有过如此经历的人大抵永远也不知道等待的辛苦 二.小一这阵子开始变得有些浮躁，急切渴望成功，渴望功成名就。我有些担心，同时也决定无论成功失败，无论贫穷艰难，我将与此人共同度过 三.今天在msn见到侯晓雯，许久不见，她老人家依然如故，澳洲的移民已在筹办中，不知何时能下来。很多时候，人前风光，背后不知要赚自己多少辛酸泪，希望她一切都好，将来能携伴参加我的婚礼 四.新居舒适异常，终日窝在家中不愿出去，这是我的温柔乡，无丝竹之乱耳，无案椟之劳形也，不亦乐乎 五.猎头公司又找上门，欲推荐给johnson，在msn上加我为友，成日我与其乱开玩笑一通，在我msn space上见到我，小一和父母的照片，大夸一番，说一家子长得天上有地下无，不亦乐乎again 六.工作还是没有决定，有很多看似不错的机会，都因各种原因不得不拒绝，尤以ACnielson为甚，做的是专业的数据分析，此为我人生大忌，左思右想，实难以接受，现今想来心里还是不舍 七.今日步出恒隆之际，一女子把我拦住，欲邀我做模特（或演员？不详），不知底细，不敢贸然答应，唯与其开开玩笑，问有否减肥产品需要代言人或者婴儿产品需要妈妈演员。回来后被小一责骂，说我没有勇气，不去Make me jiao'ao,也罢，先看看如何 八.所有百货大减价，买了一件白色的麻织衣服，风里飘飘的，虽然身上多出来的那几公斤肉还顽固地圈在那里不走，然则只要心态好，穿起什么感觉就是好得不得了*_^这次受小一影响较深，风格有所改变，上周日老同事见到夸个不停，我快要飞上天去找不着北 九.只有花销没有收入的日子很不好过，不是我的习惯，老天你给了我一个不傻的脑袋渴求你不要荒废它，阿里路亚 -_-

Work

Yay they finally called me up and said I'm all clear to start work because I didn't rob any banks while I was away. I am looking forward to working for Rosemount this summer, its gonna be a lot of fun working in marketing again just because they know what I'm capable of and hopefully I'll get to work on some high-profile projects. I move back to Edina tonight and tomorrow I'll be getting up at 7 for the first day of work.

Need to start working

I've been back for over a week now and Rosemount hasn't called me to work yet because they are still doing their background check on me, how ridiculous. This has led to some startling facts... 1) Sleep at 4am and wake up at 2pm. 2) Play Age of Empires 2 for 8 hours straight with Kenneth (who is also unemployed). 3) Lose a whole week's worth of salary. #3 sucks the most. A weird thing happened tonight. I was driving back from Kenneth's house in the BMW when suddenly a van speeds up next to me and I heard someone yell. I turn around expecting someone to point at my car telling me something was wrong but instead it was a couple teenage girls who were smiling and waving at me. They must've thought I was a cool young guy speeding at midnight while listening to 50cent because its the cool thing to do. Little did they know I was listening to the BBC Service on the National Public Radio and speeding because my parents are bitching at me to get home. It reminded me of back in the days when my buddies Graham and Nate would cruise with me at night while blasting Backstreet Boys and NSYNC and singing at the top of our lungs all while trying to look for girls who would give us some attention. I bet we would've had better luck if we were blasting NPR instead.

我的白开水

我的天，今晚蚊子要了我的命了，比义务献血还厉害，而且竟然还有蚊子吃饱喝足从空中百米飞降晕倒在我面前，我几乎没舞着个近乎成浮肿的手向它们求饶。真是怪事一桩，明明空调已经调到20度了，敢情阿飞家的蚊子也是神仙，简直是打不死的传奇 所幸的是今天房子合同终于签下来了，拜五晚可以光明正大入住啦。寄居生涯暂告一段落。真是谢谢上海爷爷和李阿姨，待发了薪水得拉这两个老好人去大啃一顿，就怕到最后还是抵挡不住李阿姨的强势买单，怕怕乎 -_- 这个星期我的疯狂面试周终于隆重揭幕，铁棒磨成针哪，左看右看全是好公司好职位，教人不知如何选择，看来不需考虑只需等待了，把面试关一一啃过，就等着哪个不吹毛求疵慧眼识珠的把我给捡了去，否则为着爱情晃荡了这么久，我也不知如何向唐小姐交待 对了，拜六和徐磊阿飞相亲去，billy说老徐的那个朋友是300%的FOB,算了，再1000%FOB咱们也认了，这年头男人靠长相出来混的只能去娱乐圈，理想的生活是杯白开水，你天天喝着健康指数不下降，加些美貌加些灿烂多些情色指数在里面，你就等于天天喝着七喜可乐加芬达，别的不说，糖尿病首先就缠上你（其实糖尿病和糖有关系么 -_-)我得承认我很幸运，我找到了我的白开水，而且最重要的是，我白开水还会偶尔为我调制七喜可乐加芬达，间中的情色调节使我的白开水喝下去直觉得生活灿烂无边。只因有爱，平淡无罪

知否，知否

刚刚收到小一的信，告诉我申请还需要的一些补充材料，我对这个冗长的过程已感到劳累无比，这是一种很能折磨人的等待，就如在深山野外中行走，你腰酸腿疼，身心俱疲，依稀看到远处似乎闪着那么几点光，于是继续咬牙坚持，埋头苦撑，可是越走越久，你走多远，那灯光便有多远。但若止步不走，则又是一点希望也无。所以纵然荆棘满地，血流遍野，也得义无返顾，勇往直前。上苍虽有好生之德，可是偶尔也会看不见人间疾苦，相见不比别时易啊，难难难！！！ 温君温君，唯你还解吾意 梳洗罢， 独倚望江楼。 过尽千帆皆不是， 斜晖脉脉水悠悠。 肠断白萍洲 温庭筠：(约812 — 约870)，本名岐，字飞卿，太原祁(今山 西祁县)人。唐宰相温彦博后代。早年才思敏捷，以词赋知名，然屡试不第，客游淮间。宣宗朝试宏辞，代人作赋，以扰乱科场，贬为隋县尉。后襄阳刺史署为巡官，授检校员外郎，不久离开襄阳，客于江陵。懿宗时曾任方城尉，官终国子助教。诗词工于体物，设色丽，有声调色彩之美。吊古行旅之作感慨深切，气韵清新，犹存风骨。

http://www.ting88.com/htm/7148s2.htm

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解释不清的梦

刚才和billy在聊天，阿飞在我身边呼呼大睡，如她每晚必做的功课一般，开始梦话连篇，就是不知道她在嘀咕什么。我起身去了洗手间，回来的时候，突然听到她口齿清晰地在向我问问题，黑暗中尤其吓人，我的心脏大力跳动，呆了半响才发现原来这家伙已经醒了。说了两句话后又沉沉睡去 我告诉billy这件事情，被他一顿好笑，然后说到上月在厦门梦魇的那件事，那是一个深夜，我比billy先睡去，他当时在干什么我倒忘了，然后我自梦中醒来，发觉自己不能动弹，一股大力量把我控制得牢牢的，我急得满身是汗，并且清楚无比地感觉到billy就在我身旁，可我就是不能醒来，不能翻身，不能睁开眼睛，终于用尽全身力气才把这股力量挣脱，自梦魇里忽地惊醒，发现billy正惊愕地看着我，然后把我搂在怀里问我是不是做噩梦了，我惊吓出一身的冷汗，死死环抱着他的腰良久说不话来 累了，先去觉觉，明天开个专栏，专写马来这几年所遇见的灵异事。可惜小一看不懂中文，否则可以把胆小的他好好捉弄一翻hehe，记得我们初认识的时候他可是被我吓得够呛的 GOD BLESS U *_^

Looking back a little

I saw "War of the Worlds" tonight, the movie was good and watching at the Marcus Theatre in Oakdale was an over stimulation of the senses. The screen was huge, the sounds were incredibly loud and you could even feel the ground shaking. I liked, it, I wish I hadn't seen it so I could go see it, again. My impressions were "Wow Dakota Fanning can scream like no other, someone shut her up NOW." and "Lasers are definately da bomb unless if aimed at you." I was just reading some of my blog entries from almost 3 years ago and noticed that my grammar and writing style was in much better shape than it is now. I also wrote with a lot more detail. My tone sounded more innocent and I think now I just sound more cynical. What happened to my writing and my English? Maybe I've been going back to China too often. I do notice that during the first couple of weeks that I get back, my English and my vocabulary isn't very good. I sometimes translate Chinese into English in my head before speaking and I often forget simple words like "refer", I think I need help. Tomorrow is the 4th of July. We have a tradition of meeting up at Michelle's house for a big BBQ. I love being at her house, but I don't really enjoy hanging out with the Yue family, they don't really give me that "warm" feeling you get around family. Oh well, most of them are just only my dad's cousins. So anyway, on a more positive note... I think I'm gonna sign up for a www.nicheflicks.com subscription so I can rent their movies online. They look very promising because they carry a lot of different films from different Asians & European countries. I love to watch movies from other countries, it gives you a good grasp on what part of their culture is like. Just like from watching Hollywood films you can basically feel that our country is about blowing things up and sex.

Pics to come

Here's a preview of what's to come... I've finally got the USB cable to connect my camera to the computer. Within the next couple of weeks I'll be putting up some new pictures and bringing back the old ones. I took down the old ones because I thought you were all tired of looking at them but I guess people want them back again.

提前衰老

竟然已经凌晨4时几分了，我竟然玩一个破游戏玩了这么久，自己心里都吓一跳，撑着桌子站起来，似魂游太虚似的，漂漂浮浮找不着北。要命了，敢情岁月不饶人，时间大神把个精力榨得干干的，精神没了，剩下满肚子的油水在荡啊荡的。待搬进新房了我得赶快开始运动，就不为个健康也得为个仪态，女为悦己者容也，誓死捍卫女性争取美丽的权利 -_-

回到马来

今天一天都在室内，没有出去，看着外头阳光毒辣辣地晃下来，怕的不是这个热，讨厌的是那种粘呼呼的感觉，一不小心，两个人碰在一起，立马似粘了浆糊似的甩不开。想起在马来西亚的日子，奇怪了，从来不觉得有什么不妥，热带的阳光那么热情地向你扑过来，也还是打打闹闹地觉得很自在。也许是偏见吧，就固执地认为上海就是不好，这样不好那样不好，连空气中都是漂浮着令人讨厌的分子。 我想NILAI了，想CANTEEN的星洲炒面，想HH BLOCK 后面那满山的猴子，想那夜半寂静无比的“死人湖”，我又想CP的拜五夜市，还想GENTING的赌场夜游，金马轮的森林野藤，热浪岛的海边木屋---整整1年了，我还是走不出这种对过往纠纠缠缠的回忆。一日站在上海轻轨中山公园站，列车呼地驶进站，恍惚间我错以为自己还在STAR的KL STATION，只有身边挤挤嚷嚷的人们是那么地不同，但我还是失神站在那里，任凭车子开来，车子开走，人群涌来，人群离去，剩我一人呆呆站立--- 今天又是和BILLY 聊到他睡倒在床，这个傻子开始变得懂得如何去关心别人，他关心我的房子比我自己还着急，他怕他不在我身边我会变得不快乐，他怕我不够坚强，又怕我不够日常的花销。这种被你爱的人所宠着的感觉很好，也许从越洋电话的那头传过来的声音一点实际帮助也没有，第二天还是得大早起床，挤地铁，上公车，薪水一点不加，老板玩命似的加班，可你就是觉得心里很安定，隔得再远，你都会觉得有人一直在拉着你的手，也许你不会因此变成公主，但是手心很暖，而且，不会摔跤